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My god, how did I get here?



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Life is good, bumps in the road

I have been enjoying four months of cohabitational bliss. Red flags have been few. I’ve done so much, too much to itemize here.

My step father died on the weekend, my mother, with whom I am estranged, is busy abusing his adult kids. Long story there. Naturally the Spector of her solitude is freaking me out. Thus the insomnia, thus the posting after a long silence.

Boyfriend is loving and good, however these are the red flags…. He and his ex are good friends and they talk weekly, yes they have been divorced seven years but they were married 35….he doesn’t make an effort to hide these calls from me, which is positive. I am, however insecure, our relationship is just a few months old, I don’t feel like I have status yet……

He’s Italian and gorgeous and he loves attention from the ladies. It’s always respectful to me though, again, my insecurities, my feelings of lack of status.

These are my red flags. Not throwing in the towel, just owning my feelings.

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and……reset my password and back in business again…..

its been an awesome summer, filled with love fun and sun and music and friends etc….. at this point I have nothing to bitch about….

fallen off the yoga wagon for two months, which is ok, but intend to do an October 30 day challenge……

heading back to the Kootenays with the bf to meet my friends and then on to Alberta to meet his family…..excited….but a little fearful etc.

not a lot to report, happy, no complaints and living the love I have found….fingers crossed kids!

i think of my tumblr friends often and hope that you all have found some peace and am in wonder about how our connections originally as recently divorced/ separated people have grown and the diverse nature of the paths we have ended up on……

xoxoxoxoxo

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Still blissed out in lovey lala land!!!

Winter is coming, eventually I’ll post again! Crisis I lost my password and can only post from my phone….. Someone help meeeee! Xoxo

Sunday 7…..summer, love, gratitude, peace, relationships, harmony, time flies xoxo

Sunday 7…..summer, love, gratitude, peace, relationships, harmony, time flies xoxo

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Last dinner in Europe, I find it somehow perfect that my last dinner in Europe, Paris is French Fries, white beer and ketchup with Dijon mustard…. Fuck you haute cuisine !!!!

Last dinner in Europe, I find it somehow perfect that my last dinner in Europe, Paris is French Fries, white beer and ketchup with Dijon mustard…. Fuck you haute cuisine !!!!

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At the Baltic Sea beach with my daughter! A fine damn day!

At the Baltic Sea beach with my daughter! A fine damn day!

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Acceptance

I never really imagined that my daughter would be any place but nearbye. That I would be the doting grandmother and support for her that I have been to her as a child through the dance lessons, singing recitals, school projects, grads, parties, heart breaks etc…..

Well, I guess you never really know…. Last night met her boyfriend’s parents and had a lovely bike ride and dinner at their beautiful home outside of Hamburg. I saw what is likely the reality, another woman will be there close to fuss over the potential grand children, while I may be an exotic foreigner who arrives only now and then.

I really liked his parents, we had a fun evening despite language differences. Our eyes met deeply several times…… I’m okay with it, I’ve let go. All I am is happy for her and excited about opportunities this will bring for our family, travel, a place in Greece maybe to spend summers ….. It’s all gonna work out.

Excited to get home Monday ! Fingers crossed bf’s arms are there to greet me and my little dog survived two weeks at Puppy Love dog jail.

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Hamburg with the female offspring ….. So proud!

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How can I miss you if you don’t go away?

Boyfriend and I got to play house for only two weeks before I had to take off on this trip I had quite spontaneously signed up for in a moment feeling adventurous!

He was invited to come but chose not to and I’m so glad he made that choice. The boat was close with five sharing a bathroom. The guys I am traveling with are awesome, but it’s like traveling with two gay guys who aren’t gay, watch their Euros and all in all are great but I know wouldn’t have worked with bf too.

Anyway, fingers crossed he’s still their when I get back! He choose a week long old timers golf, hockey, baseball thingie up island to expand his male friendships and get organized for winter hockey in town…. I think it’s perfect!

He’s texting etc and I do miss him despite all the stimulation of travel. I’m not a good tourist, I’m full if haute cuisine, wine, cheese, bread, museums, galleries and intelligent convo!

Would rather snuggle at the beach and eat salad!

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Planes, trains, automobiles, buses and feet…..will be happy to return to my boyfriend’s arms !!! Five more days!!! Looking forward to seeing my daughter in hamburg tomorrow …. In Beaune France right now after six nights on the canals of the Loire between Genelard and Roane.

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